Give Me U

If I
Give
U
Me
Would you receive me?
Allow me
Or
Give me permission to be in your midst
To enter into your compass 
Be within your reach
Come into your view
Cross the threshold of your consciousness
Assimilate into your presence
Become part of your vocabulary
Entertain your masculinity
Feel the sensitivity of your skin
The density of your being

If I
Give
U
Me
I could heighten your disposition
Revive your mind set
Take your burdens and stresses
All the tension I would lessen
I could set off a realization
An awareness within your essence
I am not here to take away what you already know
About yourself and change it
Turn you into somebody that you can hardly identify with
No
I am too complacent with your common sense
Your place, your spirit and yes, even your scent
Gain status in my heart and create strong sentiment to simple things
Yes, I replay it
Every conversation in my head
Every smile that comes to my face
Every beat pounding out of my chest
And every void that you seem to have filled in my space
You give me no other way to convey it
You present yourself so unadulterated
People like you are so rare to find and so underrated
Underestimated
Elevated is my mind every time we communicate
Elated by the mere presence of your station
And yes it’s true
You never instigate any cause for complications
We are 
Two personalities both one and the same
You authenticate all that is real and true for me
And I promise that
If I
Give 
U
Me
That I swear I would do the same

Give
Me
U
And trust that it won’t all be in vain
Let me enter into your circle
Flow into your respected space
Create want for your desire
Hold you down when you need to maintain
Put aside
Our restlessness
Further engage
Our oneness

All you have to do is
Give
Me
U


  
-j.sanjuan 

Just Right

He is…
Just the right
Kind of man to
Pique my curiosity and
Make steady my interest
He exudes this quiet confidence
That lends itself perfectly to my
Laid back, breezy intelligence
Influences an abundance of instances
To showcase and present
Mental
Physical
Sexual indulgence
Over and over and over again…..
He possesses
Just the right blend
Of mentality
By trying to be
A better man
Manifesting and maintaining
A confident, rough yet
Mature swag
While
Simultaneously transcending
Over former
Failings and shortcomings
Physically
His man-ness and virility commands
Me to let go of all my insecurities
Because his sensibility allows me
To safely trust him entirely and completely
Sexually
He takes me on a journey
Motivates my senses
Satiates my quench
And appetency
With great consideration
In the utmost unchaste nature and disposition
Instigating conversations in
Erotically infused obscenities
Translating me to involuntarily
Saturate my wet sweetly
Yet he intently
Studies my geography
Intimately grazes over
The rolling hills of my hips
The dip in my waist
The hollow in my spine
And the rigid rise of my mountain tips
Hands making his trip
Back to my steady thighs and moistened ripened lips
Vying to penetrate
Complying to take
Each thrust that is made
Savoring the extensiveness
That his thickness maintains
Engaging and repaying back
Each pleasurable twitch with rain
Over and over and over again…..
And once climax and orgasm
Are finally met
The rapture subsides
I center myself to catch a breath

I recognize
That he is…

Just the right
Kind of man
That I
Can visualize
To have in my life
He continuously
Challenges my mind
And therefore sheds light
For authenticity to be realized
He is…
So much more
Than what I thought I knew
In all honesty
He is truth
And with all that I know is in me
With all that God has given me and created me to be
It is more than enough proof
And certainty
To believe
That I have the capacity
To be his equal
It almost seems quite spiritual
To be in his space
His love is made king
With each kiss and every embrace
Anything and everything
Is made perfect in its place
Because
He is…
Just the right
Kind of man



…That no other man
Could ever replace


-j.sanjuan






-contribution for dVerse - poets pub Open Link Night

micropoetry session

I am
One who will give you a chance
To provide a demonstration
And display one's true characterization
Because quite frankly
I am
Drawn to that kind of association


-j.sanjuan

Be Around

We’ve reached a place where finally
It’s comforting to me – 
Our level of comfortability
We’ve reached a higher form of familiarity
And negativity has made its way out the door
(For the time being)
‘Cause I just want to be around you more
Sense and sensibility, in unison, form
Better times and places for our memories to record
My perception and ability to see the world
In all its beauty and clarity
Reveal how life is really supposed to be
And magnifies itself whenever you’re around me


‘Cause I just want to be around you more
To feel your warm, vibrant radiance more
The minutes and hours of distance
I’m no longer keeping score
Because we’re finally face to face in this instance
Your presence presents me with ways 
To try and get you to stay
To prolong our present situation more
An implication towards 
Communicating our emotions more
Translating our affection more
Re-enacting our fantasies more


Being around you 
Makes me feel whole
Even when I’ve already felt complete before
It’s impossible for me
To over analyze your motives 
'Cause my usual hesitation hasn’t yet materialized
Instead
We complement and harmonize
Articulate and verbalize
In ways that I never knew was possible
And I am grateful, for your whole being invites
A new and better part of me to be realized


So I invite you
To be around me more
Dig deeper and peel back my layers more
My vulnerability isn’t a factor anymore
Because I hope
I trust
I love
That you'll be around me more.






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R.I.P.

Seeing that

We both made

Our choices

And there simply is

No turning back

The fact of the matter remains

I’m still pained

By your departure

And I can surely start

To slowly walk away

But

You saw me in ways

Others couldn’t possibly

Understand

Yet here I stand

Looking over our grave

Mourning over something

That we couldn’t possibly save

…Resting In Peace

And while I still feel

The emptiness and heartache

I will only take away with me

Moments where you unfailingly

Made me feel so elated and free

Appreciated for being me

And for that

I will always be

Eternally grateful

So in ending

I’m lending you my apologies

For leading us down this road

To inevitability

And the only way for me

To amend my iniquities

To redeem and do right by our memory

Is to never cease and keep

…Reminiscing In Poetry

Why Is It

Why is it

That when we are faced with

The sudden disconnection

Disruption and discontinuity

From someone regarded

With such loving esteem

Who is magnificent and significant

That penetrates to the very core of your being

That only then we belatedly see

The gravity of their personality

The uniqueness of their complexity

The rarity of their identity

The deepness of their company

But in hindsight

And cruel unforgiving honesty

I should have seen this coming

So I’ve tried to prepare my mind

Lessen my pride

And soothe my bruised identity

By recognizing the signs

To next time seize moments that

May have otherwise seemed fleeting

Because somehow

Our intentions were

Unintentionally miscommunicated

I should have patiently waited

Chilled out

Subsided and listened to your call

And cool calm cadence

I should have been respondent

To our realities

Instead of feeding into

Unrealistic fantasies

That somehow got to the best of our senses

I should not have questioned

What it meant to be in your presence

While you should not have tested

The worth within my essence

So fair enough, I can’t lie

We share a fair amount of grievance

I should not have

Wasted time

Analyzing and furiously desensitizing

An isolated incidence

Because in the absence of your presence

I’m now forced to ignore predominant traces

Of your prevalence

You ran so frequent though many an instance

And influenced deep sentiments

And longful pretenses

I’m now faced with relegating you as an acquaintance

And have struggled to find subsistence

To an otherwise inherent and intrinsic existence

I should have relished more

In our concrete experience

Because all I’m searching for

Is cognizance towards perseverance

See

I could have gone back to the very beginning

I could find reasons for our randomly pleasant

And one-off chance meeting

And dissect each and every word

Every sentence

Action and reaction

With a fine toothed comb

But I’m slowly learning to not enter into that mode

I should not query on what is already truly gold

But simultaneously

Concerning you

I should not speculate and claim to know

What I do not control

What I should continue to do

Is recognize and own

The part in which I had to play in this role

However

Wishfully thinking…

If ever we come across another moment

Between us both

Know that we should take it for what it truly is

And what it’s here for

We should not deny our need for companionship

And not let it take over

And impede our self-growth

We should take what we instinctually
And intimately know

About us and each other

And raise it

Appreciate it

Watch it
Sit upon that throne

So that we won’t ever forget

How dangerously close

We were to losing it

Because unfortunately

Not many people come across

Moments like those

The rare chance to grasp it

Atone for it and transpose

Ironically

I yearn for it

I aspire to capture it

If ever that moment arose

But for the time being

Naturally

I at least have the chance to express it

Through my therapeutic

And poetic prose

It’s my only answer and comfort

To the question originally posed

Why is it

-j.sanjuan